This is a just a piece of something more. I just wanted to share the beginning. Just a heads up the 00/00/00 format is used to represent the date and there is a time stamp next to almost all excerpts. These posts represent an individual's journey. Maybe you can relate, maybe not. Check out the first excerpt below. I hope you enjoy.
PART I
They say that every relationship prepares us for our next one. But I am tired of being forcibly removed from "relationships" and forced to get ready for the next one. I want one that will stand the test and last and grow from within. 00/09/00 1:12 pm
I miss my bear so bad today. Sometimes I have to remind myself to take a deep breath and breathe. It's like I don't know what to do without my other half. I never would have guessed that the person who shared my heart would also be the one to hurt it so badly. I just don't know what to do. I just want my baby back. 00/09/00 6:21 pm
And today I officially know what heartbreak feels like. 00/13/00 1:47 pm
I was thinking and I really don't know how I would feel now if I never got the chance to see you again. I can't do it. I want to try to work on being in each other's lives. I mean, if you want...
I now know the meaning of an emotional roller coaster. We agreed to see one another once or twice a month. And I am elated. The smile on his face once we agreed to it literally made my heart melt. I'm ready to see how this goes... 00/14/00 11:02 pm
PART II
(The saga continues)
It's hard to put into words how it feels to let go of someone who (never finished - nor dated)
You handed me your heart & I handed you mine. Without hesitation I knew this was where I wanted to be, no needed to be. You and me turned to Us & We There's no other way. The love is still there, but you are no where to be found. My love is no where to be found. 00/16/00 2:50 pm
Just a reminder that I'll be okay. 00/16/00 6:38pm
If I call what will that accomplish?? What will I feel like afterwards? Can it wait until the morning?? 00/18/00 12:20am
Miss you. 00/23/00 8:13pm
So..you just referred to me as your friend. And...I am disgusted. I'm not sure if its with you or myself. 00/23/00 10:17pm
I find myself checking for you less & less. I'm proud of myself for this, but it also reminds me of how far removed you have become from my life. Sometimes I just can't help but wonder about us. I just wonder if this is really it. 00/24/00 1:30am
PART III
Am I wasting my time? 00/25/00 9:59am
Even while feeling broken I know that my pieces will bloom into something complete. Something so precious and perfectly made. 00/26/00 10:07 am
I'll put it into the universe in hopes you're open to receiving it. I love you. To the moon & back. 00/04/00 11:53pm
You are still my favorite. No time stamp needed on this one bc this is infinite.
I wonder if you ever think of me. Because you're running through my mind like crazy. I love you, but I can't let you run me wild. 00/12/00 7:36pm